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lemme first tell, among all the people who once walked on the face of earth, Mahatma Gandhi and Swami Vivekananda are the influential factors to my personality. Rest of my personality is shaped by the people around me, their philosophies, their psychologies and my dharma.

As a religious person I am a monotheist and I identify myself as a shakto.

lemme start with the very few people who have influenced me very much...

my mom, she is the one who introduced my to this world. she taught me my duty. she is the one who have introduced me to my religion, to the philosophies of Sri Sri Ram krishna paramhansa dev, maa sarada devi and Swami vivekananda. she is an epitome of care. she is humanitarian, liberal. you know, when you write about your mom, you seem to be loosing and missing words and expressions.... she should be the role model to everyone, she is  a fighter. even i dont have a determination as strong as hers. She is my source of inspiration, she is the one who made me believe the existence of God, and taught me to dedicate myself to any commitment, to keep my heart open and big, to deal with things in the right spirit, and to work hard, harder and force God to help us. i wont write anymore regarding her.. the more i write , the lesser it will seem.

my dad wasnt of much influence to my life, but in my school, i met a girl... nursery or perhaps before.. i dont remember when we streched hands of friendship. the one who knows me well will guess it rightly whom i am talking about. yes, it is saumaly. in the last 15 years she has changed a lot, has grown up from a kid to a lady now,her grace has doubly doubled in these years. from just a friend, to a very good friend... from just a student to becoming the topper in the school and now becoming one of the university topper, she is the one who practically guided my through the initial phase of my school life. each day after i was introduced to the telephone, hardly there was an evening when i missed calling her!  never failed to call her, initially i used to call her at 5 pm, i still remember... but later on i had no fixed time to call her... maximum time kakima used to pick up the phone and i used to say "kakima saumaly ache?" i pronounced her name in a peculiar way, which kakima found funny. kakima used to remember my number also!! saumaly told me kakima sort of misses my phone calls when saumaly has exams! i used to call each time.LOL. when i bought a cell phone, i opted for airtel, the reason was simple: saumaly and didi had airtel! i was a serious student till class 10, after that i used to Xerox saumaly's copy entirely before the exams, and then go n appear for the exams!!! if it hadnt been her, i wouldnt have got a 84% in ISC. she used to be the girl, who used to help me whenever i needed her help. and she remains to be the strongest connection to my school life. these days the name saumaly is synonymous with the word school! and i mean it. she has always been my second source of strength, and inspiration. i used to look up to her as the role model of the student.not only is she a great student, but as a person she is fantastic, caring and responsible. confident with the definite proportion of decency and shyness! she cares for the world and thats what makes her extraspecial. not before death will i forget this friend of mine, and i have promised God, she will get mah help each time she needs it!

i am very fortunate to have come across another super hard working guy in my school, who used to study day in and day out. he didnt know whats the melody of the kuhu of the morning, he didnt feel the warmth of the morning sun, he didnt care to take a note of the fragnance of the rose, nor did he felt the attraction of the world around him. physics, chemistry, maths, computer, english, bengali, and fifa formed his world. my school friends must have guessed it by now.... its agnit, now a GNIT-ian. another source of inspiration, i used to see him work hard, get myself inspired a bit and i used to start studying. we were  very good friends for more than 4 years, but to my surprise, he discussed nothing except the academics! he hardly used to take my suggestions seriously (except for academics), so i stopped calling him a friend of mine, .. i call him my biggest and strongest academic help of all times!

krishnendu taught me how to become a true human being, my mom gave me my religion, saumaly, agnit taught me how to become a student... krishnendu taught me how to become a friend, he's a person whom i will find it very tough ignoring. i still take his suggestions... whenever i feel like taking. we used to go to films together, coz agnit never found time for stupid things! before meeting krish, i was just a student, tough, arrogant, with loads of attitude and un necessary ego. staying with him i learned to deal with people with equal respect, i learnt how to respect people, talk and attend to them, talk about things except for academics! thats the biggest change krish brought in me. i wanted a change that time and he brought about the change in me. i became more free, more frank, more logical and yes.... went a bit away from studies! but only a bit, it wasnt much. his english... see if anyone tells me that my english is good... i should really acknowledge a few persons for this : sens mam, barkha dutta, NDTV, CNN IBN... and more efficiently - krishnendu. being with him, i learnt bringing in "pathetic" humour to my words, use "pathetic" figure of speeches, intending "pathetic" puns and make it "pathetically" effective. he is pathetically good in communicating, both verbal and non verbal. till this day he and i go for films! we are the regular jaya freaks... sometimes we reach INOX wandering, and once to star theatre.

supratik..... if it hadn't been him, i would have committed suicide by now. no i am not that weak a person, but yes, after all the turn of events after may 2007, supratik came to me as a blessing of God. i got a company, the right company to be with in the initial days of leading free, independent and responsible hostel life. we used to discuss various things.. staying with him, i am slowly coming out of the usual shyness that i suffer from. i was always a music enthusiastic, but got no exposure to it. he was the gate that made me explore that. he is a magician with the tabla infront of him, recently there hasnt been a blog or diary entry where i havent mentioned him. so i'll cut him short in this blog. he is a terrific student, hard worker, true, responsible, can handle pressure and success with equal ease, and that is what attracts me more to him.

the person i am going to talk now, is quite un expected, people who knows me will guess the next persons name... if u know me, cummon... karlo guess. this is a person who is very simple, very innocent, i practically met him on orkut first and then in the college. he makes me smile each time i talk to him. and perhaps the one and only guy with whom i love talking to over phone! he has brought the innocence back to my life, which was constantly missing from me these days. he has brought it back to my life. he is simple hearted, yet hard worker.. caring and loving. a true gem at heart. he is so innocent that i cant even scold him... scold korar moton ekhono kichoo koreni. he is fed up listening to the "gyan" each time... he is frank and has certain amount of sweetness in his words, that compels me to listen to him! i turn a passionate listener when i call this person. he calls me a "dada" and i care for him very very much, bechara ektu ektu frusto khaye! but cant hide his feelings from me, aamake koto kichoo bole jaaye... kintu raag korena. he actually doesnt know how to disrespect people. i have kept this 24 karat pure gold away from regular fuss of the college, this is a precious gem and here also i wont name him.

another of my junie is also very innocent and sweet, but i dont talk to him over phone very often... he once sang "main hoon na" for me overphone (a  certain kind of stupid ragging and senior chauvinism! and that too over phone), while his dad listened to him! one more hint and all will know him... he is the youngest student in BCET right now, and on december 28th he will turn 17 ! lemme name him - pravin puglia

i keep on learning many things from many people, i have learnt how to be streetsmart from aritra, i have learnt to mix responsibility with tenderness from sreyasi, to freak out from priyank, to speak all rubbish from kuntal!!

other influential people whom i cant help but love,.. rather i love to love them as friends... aninya, annesha, DD (3 bhootnis), my roommie - rohit , who is very much of an infuence these days(he has a fantastic cool head), proma, shouvik.

there has been very few pathcracking peoplein my life, who arent as influential in my life, but their presence made a huge difference in my life, changed my life even for a bit, its abhishek dhar, arka samanta, and a series of all the names mentioned above!

supratik:aritra:sunit:proma:sreyasi:shouvik:karthik:rohit:aninya/annesha:

out of all these people named above,only rohit is my friend who knows me from precollege
days,.. rest of my friends were made after i came to college.
i never paid much attention to the guy from the weekend batch, who generally stayed
with rajat, and that other guy, but a sudden rush of blankcalls and anonymous sms's
made it tough for me to make out who it was... later i discovered, it was the same
guy from the weekend batch.. and his name is rohit. after that, there never was a
evening when i didnt get his sms. he never used to talk in class, but never failed
to sms me once i returned from careerpoint! i came to know him better only after we
became roommates, and to be more precise only when we were in the second year! that
was a very interesting way he became my friend! the missedcalls,the sms's, him
getting a rank closer to me, he joining the same college, becoming my roommate was
all very eerie - i still dont know what made me do so... but it was a right
decision and i cherish such decision! we can become bests of friends! i mean now we
are!

similarly, i never paid attention to the talks of swastik... and specially when he
talked of the guy who stayed near to his home.. but it was in late september when i
met supratik in the bus stand. a couple of talks and i knew he was the only one
who's frequency matched with me in the entire 1st year's. it was his tabla that
attached me more with him, and i got to hear his tabla on nov 2nd. i still remember
that day, the next day that followed saw me at my most emotionally troubled times!
finally i got out of mah depression. i had to accept the cause of the depression
rather than adjusting it! thanks to supratik's tabla, that had given me mah second
life. i treasure such a friend!

aninya/annesha combo... i was a intruder to their roomie combo! that time i
thought anindya could me my good friend, but fate had its own ways.. anyway,
anindya was serial number 7, aninya was 8, i was at 9, and annesha was at 10.
hardly did i knew that this mamta bannerjee of our class would become mah very good
friend, and will guide me thru the thik and thins of my college life! [mamta
bannerjee = aninya, not annesha] annesha is cool, free of any tension.. and was my
workshop partner! she wasnt good at it. annesha seems nervous only at exams and not
anywhere else. aninya is the reverse in this case! one shud have seen the face of
aninya when she discovered that i am inbetween their roll numbers! hehehe! and they
introduced me (rather forcefully) to DD. reason: she was the third and the only
girl who had no girl-partner in the physics lab.. when aninya asked me, whether we
shud include her, i nodded reluctantly.. but what made me say yes was simple: i
didnt want animesh kumar in my team and i didnt want to go negative at the begining
of our friendship and i felt sympathetic towards DD. aninya's frown, annesha's
sighs were the interesting start to our friendship! later DD, anindya, aninya, me,
annesha made our friendship official :P by "ponchobhoot".

when i had a fight with silver saurav aka hitlar, i saw a girl constantly
supporting me. the girl did only know me by my posts, we never had a chat
before... but her supports helped me a good deal doing the shaitani... and
promoting version comm. she is now a very very good friend of mine... she is luchi
(proma majumdar)

next in the list are my junies - shouvik, aritra, karthik, sreyasi, sunit
the kind of person i am, i speak much but with only a few person, and very few
people knows my very well. i didnt at all expect to mix with junies so well and so
much. i thought they'll know me only as a student, maintain "hi-hello" relations. i
wished to be friends with them, but never expected that.

the second day after the junies came to college, i was going home as it was
saturday. there i purposely didnt wear a watch and hid my belt under the shirt,
aiming purposelessly standing at the busstop.
a guy, taller to me, slender build came up to me and asked: "bengal college?" i
answered meekly - "yes", (and not "yea" which is my usual habit.) he seemed to have
summoned more confidence and asked me - "mechanical?" i answered him bluntly ,
knowing fully well that he was a junie and he thought me to be a fresher as well -
"no CSE".. he seemed so full of confidence.. his third question was the pathcracking
one - "1st year?" i answered him with an unfamilier wicked smile- "2nd
year". the 8B bus came and he seemed to have dissapeared. i hung on to the last
stair of the bus and went all the way to muchipara hanging on to the bus like a
baby orangutan fixing itself to its mother!
boarded down at muchipara, discovered that my bisleri bag got torn, and discovered
the same guy, who shared with me a glance and turned and was walking at quite a
remarkable speed. i was amazed, confused and knew no way to calm him. i knew that
my being a senior was worrying him and the previous conversation is making him feel
quite guilty. confused as i was, went to the ticket counter, booked my tickets,
came out and went up to that guy and asked his name. he was being ultra decent,
told me his name rather meekingly - shouvik.
i was just going to tell him how to wish and inroduce himself, but was interuppted
by pratikda, sugata da and the good dada in denim blue jeans shirt. they didnt seem
to have any mercy on the extremely new fresher. i couldnt help much but see him
being ragged a bit. we boarded on the bus, i talked to him, made him drink water
and relaxed him a bit. i discovered that he was sitting quitely beside me, telling
or asking nothing. i had to make him speak rather forcefully.. asked him to
speak for 5 minutes and went on adding 5 minutes to each considerable pause he had
had! finally he started speaking and we spoke all the way to kolkata! it was a very
interesting start to such a friendship

lets carry on.
when i was feeling unwell surojit took me to the auditions, not as a contestant but
as a coordinator, for he believed i have good terms with the juniors and i can
manage other people as well!
the first day of the auditions i met that guy named karthik, who had earlier
chatted we me on orkut. the auditions were not the start for our friendship, it
started at orkut! i will always remember him as such a person who is overconfident,
with overflowing attitude but a gem at heart. he doesnt know how to mix with
people, even if he does mix with people he doesnt know where to draw the line.
i will remember his words from our very first conversation - "my hands are
shaking... ..my legs are trembling..""what if u ragg me?", i felt
terrible! he went on to say many other stupid things! he wasnt bold that time.
later on when we met at the auditions , i felt like hating him for what he was,
then again after many many days i spotted him at the first bench at the foundation
day, it is only after that i came to know him as a person.

i met a rightly proportioned boy on the first day of the auditions..
name: aritra das, dept: EEE.
by right proportion i mean confident/obidience/decency/humour in their right
propoetions!
he came up to suro, and me to show their script.
in him i saw a responsible boy and i didnt at all wish him falter for he was a
fresher, other seniors (which didnt include supro n suro) were talking about
participation of the junies and how they are open to ragging and how they wont be
given a chance to perform.
i bluntly decided to guide aritra and his team, with out any reason. i didnt
even know who aritra was as a person, whether he is good or bad or whateva he is, i
never knew. all that i knew was i wanted the junies to perform. i decided to be a
part of their team, guide and help them. because if i were there, the chances of
them being ragged were minimised to zero, i could coordinate for i was the senior,
he maynot have known other students from other departments, and my work was to
mobilise the group which i did. i cherish my decision to help him. now we are
friends, and i trust him like anything now. helping each other didnt stop at the
drama which apparently rocked, it went on to being volunteers at the NEN-TATA-ABP
summit, to the NIT verve to till now and will continue...
he wont let me down, and will never break my trust. if he does, he will be the last
person i have trusted.

hmmm priyank took me with him to coordinate the NEN seminars... there i enjoyed
each second being with the junies! later that evening aritra called me and asked me
to bring sreyasi with me, for she would be playing apsara, i searched her by her
name, for i didnt know who sreyasi is, later i discovered her - the 25th dec girl,
brilliant speaker with tonnes of confidence. i asked her to come with me to the
college, she came with me all the way.. but couldnt attend the practice for richadi
reminded us of the college rules and customs!
in due course of time i discovered she is a good dancer and carried herself like no
one else. her dance moves were gracious, as gracious as her way of speaking
(aninya finds it annoying though!) but sreyasi was never rude to me. atleast
me as a dada didnt find anything rude about her behaviour. when she denied to take
part in the drama, i along with the junies did something very funny, basically
cheering her by her name and not stopping till she nodded her head for a "yes". i
cant stop smiling each time i think of that! she is responsible, a good debater,
smart, presentable.... sociable na.. she is a bad mixer. overlooking all the good
qualities, she has a certain kind of attitude, a certain tone which marks her as a
person, but marks a definite line between her and other students. that line forms a
wall now and no one knows sreyasi very well as a person. i guess poulomi does!
now what makes this interesting start? valid question! the way i called sreyasi at
first, taking her to the college and specially the "chaaat" and the legpulling i
got from anindo sir the day next! anindo sir, sandeep sir and priyank were the
first to link me with her [which i found very stupid, and now i find it quite
humourous!] but that rumour seemed to have spread faster than the wild fire in the
2nd yr circles and aritra was fast to spread it in the 1st yrs, and thanks to amit
for fanning such a rumour! result: embarrasment without reasons! i donno how much
sreyasi felt embarassed.. but i was a bit at first. i have got used to it now!

hmmmm the last of it till now.. sunit.
this guy send me a friend request on orkut. i had (as usual) asked him to introduce
himself, how he got to know me etc.. he went on to tell that he is sunit from IT
dept, and he saw me in the NEN seminar and found me quite good and humanitarian. we
exchanged our phone numbers.
next day he sent me a good morning sms. i replied. he replied to my reply (another
of those forwarded sms), i carried on replying to his replies in a
similar fashion untill i was fed up [i had already send some 60+ sms by then]
and i called him (before we didnt know each others voice) and asked whether his sms
was also free like mine or was he trying to continue this the day long.... he
bluntly said, tumio sms kore jachho aami ki korbo,,, aamio sms kore jachhi! i found
him very funny. the next day, it was the same story. the day next was similar only
with one difference.. i think it was the 7th or 8th sms when at the end of the sms
he wrote "PROMO SHESH", marking it the end for the day!! i found him extremely
funny.
after few interactions he asked me to accompany him back to kolkata! basically he
wanted me to go with him, for sneha was going with her boyfriend, and he found
noone else to go with. i took DD with me, so finally me, DD, priyank, sunit boarded
on the bus. there i found another good/interesting junie - ahana from the ece dept.
sunit, me and ahana talked all the way to kolkata. atleast that evening my tongue
didnt have a rest! priyank entirely had a rest! DD was infuriated! ahana was
confused... sunit perplexed! we didnt fail smsing each other. then after the
bhaiphota i came back to hostel [31st oct 08] (i think my memory is good), no one
else were there in the hostel, including my roomie. i didnt know whom to talk to,
so i decided to call another airtel customer: no prize for guessing...i called
sunit, karon saumaly-r phone lagchilo na. i discovered i can really talk over phone
for more than 20 mins(my earlier highest). i had talked with him for 50+ minutes...
51 minutes rounded. my mobile balance crashed steeper than our indian sensex. we
spoke about nothing practically... aami hejiye jachilam! killing time and with it
my mobile balance. he then discussed with me different ways of commiting suicide
after having talked with a guy for 50 minutes! [had it being girl, i shudnt have
commited suicide!] the day next i had a talk with him for about 45 minutes! but
that became a habit, after that i called aninya after 00:00 midnight, and oder
saatheo hejalam! as to what to do when suchismita starts singing! we talked of the
flying ships! sweetsmelling socks! talking dumbs! music appreciating deafs! LOL. i
came to know sunit as a person, and he also tells me everything (i guess).
ekhanei iti tani!
noile baki porar time tao jaabe.
........................................

anirbansaha
30.11.2008

Today I am going to take a voluntary break, and skip classes.

The whole masti session has come to an end and its high time I concentrate on studies.

In the crazy note I wrote a few details that happened with me till Saturday, so lets carry on from Sunday![31st august to 5th September]

Sunday was pretty special for me, after been late to wake up, I was disappointed with supratik who didn?t keep his word, and frustrated as I was I went to sleep again! Finally managed to get up, had bf, then decided to rush to Kolkata, but it was too late, no train would have been able to take me to Kolkata, skipped the idea, went to the saloon to have a haircut, registered to DIAS, had the haircut, came back, was preparing to wash the clothes when I came to know then there weren?t any water at the tap. But managed somehow to have a bath and wash my clothes, shouvik was alone in his room and called me to give him a company, I never disagreed. I was supposed to sleep them, but the idea of going to his room was better than taking a nap, had full time fun, finally took him to bidhannagar for reasons not so good, finally had chicken roll and for the first time I went to the forest there. It is not that I enjoyed it, but it was pleasant. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were special. Monday it was the practice with the orchestra, and perhaps my only disappointment till then. Shouvik wasn?t that well, and my skit team was late. Later shouvik wasn?t allowed to sing, not that he sang badly, but his choice of song would have ?hurt? the sentiments of the fourth year, and there weren?t any time to change the song? so his name was struck off. Shouvik was upset, and that clearly showed in his face. But never mind, we had to carry on, after the regular drama practice, that drama practice session was also very good, where I sat down listening to everybody?s queries and problems. I knew a single thing - I had to make shreyoshi perform in the skit. Finally after so much of hesitation she gave in. I saw a very peculiar thing in the whole team , the girls and boys were not mixing well, even some of the boys weren?t happy with others [including mine] performance. The immediate task that I had to do before any more practice was ? to build a team. I called them, at 7 in the morning the next day. The morning has its effect on peoples mind, and calling them at an unconventional time was good to build them to a team. And that would have even tested each ones commitment to this skit. Yes - they were committed, and the following challenge was tough. We were running thru a shortage of actors [who can speak good English and do the rap] finally shouvik took up the rap and agni dev was replaced, and many such changed took place. The most notable of them was the changed in the introductory song [thanks to mrs mondol] but whatever happens, happens for the better. We got a better song to dance to ? ?hum naaye geet sunaye, hum naaye rang sajaaye, hum naaye roop dikhaye tumhe? hum naaye duniya ke basi, humko nahin fikar jarashi, hum naaye naaye baat bataye tumhe?? I think that was the best lines that anyone could find for the introductory song [thanks again to mrs mondol to have cancelled pagla haowa]. The male dancers weren?t able to dance to ?maria?, so that song was also changed. Thanks yaaro! The song then selected was ?hare ram hare Krishna? from bhool bhulaiya.. I think that song fittest the most.

Again the next day [Tuesday] the reported at 7:00 am, and we had our regular dose of problems, like dancers running away, dancers being scolded by mrs mondol and shouvik getting frustrated for not being able to perform the song, his lines weren?t coming clear and so on. But work never stopped. And masti continued ?sob-e maya?? LOL. I took the aritra and shouvik to the cafeteria and they had their lunch there. Frightened as they were both, they insisted on telling a lie.!

Practice resumed. And finally [thank you priyank] the choreography was done, and thanks to shreyoshi for training others.

Wednesday was the performance. Hoooooo! Again I called them at 7 in the morning, had the stage rehearsals went to nb9 and continued the practice. Controlling juniors and scolding them wasn?t a tough job. But finally my work was done, and all the juniors reached the auditorium at the right time. Paramparas performance was good. Supratik was flawless ? that usual isn?t it? But somewhere I felt the others lacked that same amount of confidence - either they were not confident on them or was frightened that any other might do unwell - it was an ?insecure? performace? but not insincere. Anchoring!!!! Mah God? aami jani na ke ei anchor gulo ke select korechilo! Finally they were removed and sandeep sir managed it! Yea yea - sob-e maya!

And then began the whole torturing session! The same lectures ? yack! But the head of NASSCOM was too good, and I got to learn many things from his speech. The second half began, our make-up man came, indra and agni was ready to perform. LOL if I post this to my blog I will definitely give their pictures. LOL. The juniors were fantastic and the whole performance was carried out like a team, fantastically coordinated, fantastic acting, dancing and entertainment. Jeebok and aritra needs a special thanks for their performances. This doesn?t mean I am not thanking others! Each performance was awesome. The only problem we faces was that of microphones but the actors really didn?t let it feel! All those who understand good English enjoyed the skit, rest of them either danced to the music, or shook their body to the rhythm of the rap! There was a Bengali rap and a hindi rap - to cater to all kinds of audience? in short - except for the microphone, everything was ?perfect?.

Perhaps for the first time that BCET completed its program fully! Anyway? lemme tell about other performances? priyanka ghosh was awesome, fantastic? and I think we had the best of classical dances in the show. The bharat natyam and the kathak was fabulous [priyanka ghosh and the 1st yr B.Pharm girl] aninya and priyankas performance was mind blowing and I was at the verge of loosing all sensation! Arijitadi was as-usual - - - fantastic , and added to it, she had confidence in herself. The fourth year guys was fantastic in their sur, taal and all the technicalities of singing [take it sarcastically] after that I smelled jhamela and it was unsafe for juniors to stay there? so I decided to take them out of it. I [as usual] acted like a tube-light! (I wont say the occasion). I went to benachiti to take the shirt, and couldn?t attend the party thrown by aritra!

The next day was fantastically stupid! Why am I calling a day stupid?

Lemme explain? saradindo sir told me that I had to arrange for volunteers to direct the delegates and manage them? so I had handpicked few good looking, decent, smart, hospitable, good speakers who could communicate in English. I chose a complete nice team - - me, debashis, nupur mallik [all 2nd yrs] shouvik, kartik, shreyoshi [1st yrs] later on aritra and priyankar joined in, but we discovered that the initial job was that of ?coolies?? pathetic. The girls were spared, the boys had to transfer the goods, while the girls did the framing, I pasted posters of the show ! but t was only after shreyoshi and shouvik left, that we got the real job, the delegates started coming in.. other 1st yrs joined in like harsh gupta, vikas, rohit, anshuman. In all the job was done as smoothly as butter!!! There was complete peace and no one was offended and we were all hospitable. But I had to stop few guys, who went to the toilet to smoke? I had to get in to stop them for we were supposed to maintain the sanchity of the college and smoking is strictly banned! Then we discovered that the conference room was filled, and if we wished to attend it we had to stand. We didn?t wish so. Me, nupur, kartik, vikas and rohit decided to stay back and interact.. we interacted. There is something I need to specify about kartik. He looks great, he is smart.. and aspires much and has the fire and the dedication within. But something in him makes him a bad mixer. He talks less? pathetically less. For being a team man he needs to learn smiling and talking to other people. Achha lemme continue. We had our lunch and harsh joined us.. as he is - - innocently smart, he asked me to sing? my throat was soaring and was sounding pathetic, just like a un tuned guitar.i confidently said ?if and only if kartik sings, I am going to sing?, I was confident, that kartik would shy away! But lo! He sang! ?I can be you hero babe!? ja babba! I had to keep my promise and I sang ?pal? hum rahe ya naa rahe kal? with the broken voice! Harsh sang.. supratik , priyank and arijitadi entered to have their lunch and skipped the second session of the summit. They did masti full time, pulling legs of each one of us? no one was spared. Not even NM.. we all had fun, and harsh was asked to propose priankar and nupur.. I did the video recording.. although it was sort of ragging but none of us took it that way - - harsh masti se propose kar rah tha, and we all enjoyed it, even the first yrs there were enjoying! Finally it was time to get back ..

And today, I did the digi lab class?. Explained the full system to 2 lateral entry guys ? sanjeev and abhishek [ I hope I remember their names properly](this needs a special mention because just seconds ago I was assigned the job, we 4 bhoots were laughing at them). I don?t know why exactly I came home, it was necessary ? I know, but?!!

Lemme leave here.

Arre I forgot commenting on juniors - - earlier in this post I had commented on kartik sivakoti - he justifies his name: kartik. He looks cool, has huge amount of potentials but needs to develop his personality, be more frank and friendly, needs to learn how to smile. Harsh gupta - the laughing/smiling kid! He is a saaf-dil person, very frank, well mannered, fun loving junior. I don?t know how good he is at his academics. Rohit- EEE department, unsmart but aspiring, needs to develop much much much.

Tanmoy - too good a guy ! just mind blowing personality, I want sivakoti to imbibe few of his qualities [atleast smiling]. He smiles, talks all crap at times, fully fun loving..

Anshuman ? I had commented on him before also, so I?ll skip it this time.

Jeebok ? he needs a bit of ragging. After that he will be perfect junior. Otherwise a superb personality.

Pronobesh ? I wish he comes to CSE. He is devoted, very very devoted and hard working, emotional, sensible with all the qualities that makes a person ? humble and great!

Lets come to the girls ?.

Meenakshi ? hmmm? I cant forget her swimming steps! But she managed the whole dance well on the stage - - hard working, takes initiative.

Jhimli/ or you maight call her debarpita, I call her 8.5: fun loving and ever smiling? I don?t know much.

She is from siliguri and looks similar to bubun. I hope they meet some day..

Sapna ? all words of appreciation would sound short when it come to her. I am most pleased with her determination and hard work. She is a BCA student but I wish she comes to CSE. She is exxxtremely hardworking and with a never give-up attitude, modest, decent, helping.

Priyanka - - dances with an enthu! Sushmita ? had fever , skipped the dance?

Shreyoshi ? till now I have not fully understood what her problem is? I get confused. She is good to me, and I never found her offensive [ I did found her, but at that time I was anirban-the dada , and not anirban-the senior, so I didn?t mind it] but the seniors ? specially girls find her offensive,? she I think is an introvert, arrogant? and there is only one medicine to cure her attitude.

She needs good, true and hospitable friends. Only a true friend can change her? if she is not changed for the better.. her talents may go wasted. And I wish all my senior friends will nurture her talents and bring out the real person out of her. I bet- she at heart is not at all what she appears to be. Anyway she is extremely talented, hard working and understanding. The way she was training the guys and teaching them to dance was awesome. The way she was choreographing was superb. She is responsible. On the NEN day she smsed me that she is not coming, and I didn?t reply her back? but was surprised to see her and nupur waiting right on time!

She is just like me ? she comes out only she has power in her hands, she cannot manage herself confined within rules and limitations, once she is given responsibilities and the freedom associated with it, she performs.

Is any junior left for a special mention?

Oh ha! Debomita [CSE junior] : hard working, and never showed me attitude. Behaved improperly with deboleena [ECE, 2nd yr] and I also found it offensive, but she never offended me, rather came to the skit by herself, and I welcomed her, and her hard work amazed me. I remember chipping in each time and scolding debomita and deboleena for not interacting with each other. They were sitting next to each other for about 1 hour or even more, without even talking to each other. Hehehe! When she was performing on stage, the claps formed her beat, I encouraged others to encourage her, she was frightened by the bomb? but never lost her sur for that!!

Fantastic!

These days .. I am feeling a change in myself? change for the better perhaps? lemme give you a overview of the last 6 days?[25th august to 30th august]

Hmmm lets start like this.. these 6 days, I am doing stuff which anyone would least expect from me? I am getting out of myself? actually!

From sitting at the doorsteps of the train, with a newly found chota bhai of mine, to talking all rubbish with a senior from another college.. to doing crap with the other passengers in the mithila express? to blindly believing shouvik? all was fun? then skipping and bunking classes was fun, managing the auditions were fun, getting to the very nerve of it was fun?. Being with aritra and company was fun! I could have never imagined that I had these much bundle of energy? from doing the assignments in the morning? to do classes, to taking bunches of juniors to management block, attending to them , interacting with them, listening to the whole NEN session , having full time masti, coming back to college? and attending to aritras? group, getting back to hostel late?. Was fun..

Even on Friday.. bunking lunch and training the 1st yr skit team, then going directly to tarapith, having had the puja done, again coming to Durgapur by a stupid bus, where I had to stand all the way from rampurhat to siuri , and getting to hostel.. again going to practices, and the craziest thing that I have done in recent past came late in Saturday. I mean late, pathetically late.

After having interruputed by the powercut at the class room, I decided to go to benachiti for the shirt making, having no company, I took shouvik with me. I didn?t give anything a thought? I just took him, and on the way planned to have our dinner in a restaurant , little did I know that that will be crazy!

After all the measurements were taken, we searched for the restaurant , but finally we ended , entering a BAR, I mean ? bar cum restaurant , we ordered for chicken fried rice and chicken Manchurian. We loved the food, and managed with a soft drink [ couldn?t really manage the ?something? that shouvik meant LOL][actually shouvik told,?why cant we have a soft drink or something??, while I took it in another way! He didn?t mean that!]. by the time we finished paying our bills? it was 9 pm.

We just chillaxed all the way to the bus stop, got into a bus, and just were stretching ourselves, when we came to know that the bus was scheduled at 9:30 pm.

Awe!!!

9:30 meant , we were going to reach the hostel no sooner than 10:30 pm, means we were to be screwed! GOGO ka darrr! Gates bhi band hone wale the! Finally not knowing what to do, we managed to get down of the bus, walk all the way to find an auto stand, but there weren?t any auto. We even couldn?t help ourselves by a taxi/bus? we reached a 5 point crossing where all the roads were almost same. Although junior to me, shouvik was a huge mental support and I was enjoying myself then also! I don?t know why, I had no kind of tension! Finally we met a guy [joy-da] who dropped us to the hostel gate [ for rupees 100/- quite cheap isn?t it?] I nodded my head when shouvik fixed a deal with that guy [ the otherwise complete stranger] it is only that we three were on his Yamaha bike, I felt, why did I believe a stranger? Durgapur at this time is famous for causes, not so good. But till then, all were done, and we three were speeding at around 50-60 kmps on a ill-lit road. All?s well that ends well! Shouvik didn?t do his leave out, neither did I do it! Thank God for that! We were not caught breaking rules? I wasn?t breaking rules? it was the 1st years who are supposed to be in by 8:30 pm, and I could have been taxed, for taking a 1st year out for such a long time!

But I really feel blessed having found a bro like shouvik. The other juniors are great! Be it aritra - whose attitude is undergoing a change, from decent to ultra decent and over confident! [contrasting isn?t it? But true] a few seniors were complaining about his attitude. The most fantastic among his team was anshuman [indra] - good, decent, not at all a hypocrite, free minded, doesn?t smoke, lacking thoda confidence, and true. The others include kedia, the newest rapper, agnidev, jeebok. I cant comment on them right now, but [except for jeebok] others are fine.

Among the junior girls, aami already sandeep sir, r anindya sir er theke shreyosi ke niye chaat kheyechi, but it?s a true promise, the interaction has only been professional, and I have asked her to call me dada? that would remove all confusions I guess! And the rest three urvashis - I wont comment! Rather I cant.

Oh ha! I have met two more juniors ? rajat [cse] and sayan [aeie]. Rajat is not at all what I thought him to be, may be he is masking himself from me,.. but I really feel he isn?t actually masking, And sayan exactly what I imagined him to be. Kartik sivakoti is somewhat weird - smart, confident but somewhat, somewhere indecent, Doesnot know how to manage himself. May be because he never expected to meet me like that [I also never imagined to meet him like that, he wasn?t supposed to be in the singing auditions! He thought we had debate on the 3rd!]. sayantan disappointed me very much. My idea about him was changing for the better, but his one stupid step made it all go waste! [He is supposed to have been captain in his previous school, if this is the type of temperament, or management he shows ? I should pity such a school then]. Any way I am happy today, a bit too happy.

I think I am changing, changing perhaps for the better. I am becoming more like a human being, than just a machine ? as I used to be.